I’m growing in all different directions. My religion, my world views, my dreams, my sexuality; everything from my past is being overturned and observed. It’s scary, to see the parts of me that I’ve held on for so long turn out to not truly mean much to me. The fear of letting go is one that has always haunted my thoughts. But I’m happy to finally realize the control I have over who I want to be. I don’t want to hide or censor myself any more. I don’t want to laugh and dismiss possibilities that I wanted, just because others say it’s not a safe route. I don’t want to force myself to go though unnecessary hardship when there are happier, more fulfilling paths I can explore. I want to fall unabashedly in love with myself because I’ve always put loving myself as a side task. I don’t care anymore if I may come off as naïve or dumb to others. I just want to allow myself to be a human being and discover who I am.
- Doctor: I think you'll need a shot
- Me: AYYYYY
- Doctor: AYYYYY *brings out tequila*
this week has been too much for me
Some of the parts of the parcel that Miranda sent me over spring break! You can see more of it here!